Unit 3 personal reflections

Based on own reflections, and on a scale of 1 to 10 (ten being optimal well being), I rate my own personal
A-physical well being 9
B-spiritual well-being 3-4
C-psychological well-being 3-4

I have to admit that I have neglected my spiritual well being and played havoc on my psychological  well being with trying to control the aspects of my life that in reality I have little control over and not allowing the situations that I have a bearing on to constructively be changed. I have always focused on my physical well being, I consistently focus on exercise and nutrition and allowed the positive effects from my commitment to exercise to hopefully pour over into the others. i am finding that the run off is seriously lacking.

In order to create  wholeness with in my life and that of my family, I am going to take the time to allow myself  time to enhance my mental state and spiritual well being while incorporating it into my exercise routine. I allow myself one hour a day to focus on myself. This hour usually consist of an hour working out where my family does not ask anything of me or at least that is what i ask for and hope to get. This is my goal.

As a part of my cool down and stretching routine, I an going to try to incorporate mediation as a way to calm my mind. By calming my mind, I hope the decrease the stress levels and reduce my anger reaction. One thing I want to do is wake up in the morning 20 minutes earlier.The morning time is a stressful time in my house. We always seem to be in a rush to get the kids up and ready for school, eat breakfast and out the door in time to catch the bus.  There are times that the morning are beyond stressful that I have been brought to a full fledged anxiety attack resulting in tears, which spills over into work. Not a good thing!!!

Another things that I would like to do is to get a dog again. Not a puppy but an adult rescue dog. This came to mind today, when i took the kids to petsmart to look at the dogs for adoption. We as a family found a beautiful 2 year old mixed bloodhound that took to the kids like he belonged to us. We hope to have him with us as soon as we move into our new house sometime this month.  Just the calming effect of having a dog around to pet and love on for all of us would help. Plus, walking a dog would give me a chance to regroup my thoughts and out in nature and give the kids some exercise away from the Wii.

As far as my spiritual well being, I need to realize that I do not have to be busy with every minute of my life. There are time where just being still and be able to listen to things around me. Life does not always have to structured and schedules. i want to take a walk on the beach with my family, not having to worry about what needs to be done, what time it is and hurry home because this or that needs to be done. Just to slow down and enjoy a little bit of what life has to offer.

As far as the relaxation exercise for this week,  The Crime of the Century. I decided to ask my husband to join me since the kids were with my mom, shopping at Walmart. The thought of walmart alone causes my blood pressure to rise!!!! My husband is what I would call old school. Anything that is not in his norm or in any sense of alternative is a bunch of mumbo jumbo so I thought it would be interesting to see what he thought of the exercise. To my surprise, he actually enjoyed. He said that he felt relaxed but not tired. The usual tension in his neck and shoulder seemed to less and his lower back felt warm. The rest of the day, it seemed like he had more patience with things and willingness to help with the laundry and dinner. (if that is all it took to get help, he needs more of these exercise on a daily basis)
As for me, it took a while to clear my thoughts from my mind but once I did. I begin to visualize the colors radiating from my body. One thing that I noticed and this happens when I am trying to go to sleep, as I get into a relaxed state  and during the relaxation exercise, my body will jerk, pulling me back to a tense state. Like my body is saying, nope you can't do that. I have to admit that this has been a stressful week and there have been quite a few sleepless night. I wonder if anyone else has experienced this???